Because I am Special =)

Yes, you read it correctly!! I am special.
But so are you =)

Have you ever envy someone because that person is better looking than you?
Or  because she bought a bag that you really really want for so long?
Or because that person’s voice is better than yours?
Or because her body is superb that not even an everyday exercise gym could ever get you close to what she got?

When I was younger, my mom compared me with my friends in so many times. Whatever I did or achieved were never enough for her because someone else did it better. I could do ballet, and I think I was pretty good at it. But someone in my ballet class got bigger part than me during one performance (yes it was just once), I felt pretty beat up and feel not so good about my ballet skill anymore (now I realized how stupid I was). There was also another time when I got second highest score semester’s GPA during my junior high school, I was so happy and proud of myself until I told my mom and she said why couldn’t I get the 1^st highest GPA instead?

Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t say that my mom is a bad person, In fact, I think she is the greatest mom ever =) But at that time those memories made me feel I’m not special (at all), until one day during my high school, I met my class mate’s mom during half semester students’ parent meeting and that lady said that she wish she had me as her child because I am smart (FYI she said this just because my score was way higher than her kid). At that moment I feel special =)

Yep, just like that, I feel special just because some random lady told me that she preferred me than her kid. It make me realized that EVERYBODY is RARELY SATISFIED with what they have. Most people always look up and then they figure out that people are more special and they are not. This is not always a bad thing to do, because when you realize that there is something more special than what you have now you will be more motivated to reach it, for example people will work harder at the gym to have better body.

It will become a bad thing when you start comparing yourself with other and being jealous and feel other people are superior and more special than you.

Yes it is true that there is someone (or maybe many people) out there that have better voice than me, also there are many people in this world that smarter than me or prettier than me (and the list could go on and on)

But I wouldn’t describe myself with only 1 word (will you?).
Example: I wouldn’t describe myself as Cindy Dauna the smart girl.
Because that won’t make me special, I mean smart girl is very general (in fact, many girls out there are smarter than me).

I am special because I have this compilation of things, abilities, skills, thoughts, ideas, experiences and feelings in my life. AND THEY ARE specific and different than yours and what other people in the world have. I call this my footsteps.

My footsteps and yours are different and no one (trust me!!) no one has a similar footsteps, not even an identical twins.

So how does this footsteps thing work?

This work just like a combination of numbers lock: the more number you put on your lock the harder it is to guess the password of the lock. For example: the variation of password that you can choose from a 3 digits number lock will only be 1 to 999, but when you add 1 number to it now you can choose between 1 to 9999. In other word, the more combination of things, abilities, skills, thoughts, ideas, experiences and feelings you have on your footstep, the more special you are. And I doubt that someone only have 1 skill in life or one abilities in life or one thought in life, and so on.

So my voice might be not as good as A but I can do ballet better than A. My ballet skill might be not as good as B but my mathematical skill might be better than B. My mathematical skill might not as good as C but I can sing better than C. And the footstep comparison could go on and on and on and in the end it will make everyone different and special.

So… I am special because I am me!! And so are you people... =)
And when you think you are not special and envy other people because they have something that you don't, someone out there envy you because of something that you have that they don't.

So please start feel content of what you have and never feel that you're not special, because you are ^^

Thanks for reading...
Good night all!!